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Is LISK a Bisexual Sadist Sexual Serial Killer?

2023.06.01 20:54 rlnjkm Is LISK a Bisexual Sadist Sexual Serial Killer?

Is LISK a bisexual sadist serial killer; grooming, attacking and murdering both men and women and why do few people really want to consider this?
A reasonable case for this can be made with just allowing one’s perspective to see all of the overarching evidence and challenge law enforcement’s one dimensional, myopic and hastily put together narrative.
As stated many times before, SCPD believes “Asian Male” to be an outlier, a surprise to LISK, who being all heterosexual, beat this person to death in a fit of rage. On the surface, this is a plausible assessment; that is, if there weren't any other males found in proximity (location and time), to female victims, or found in some sort of female clothing. How does that align when SCPD also has a keen eye on Andre Jamal “Sugar Bear'' Issac, going so far as to incorporate a link to the Gilgo News website, and “owning” the case, despite their torso being found in Arverne, in a female bodysuit and skirt?
The link, or links?
As my research progressed, using my map, it became rather obvious to me that there was something more going on than the narrative suggests. The list of male victims I’ve compiled are not conclusive and there could very well be any number of reasons and tons of other POI’s, but if “Asian Male” and Sugar Bear and the Manorville Males are in LISK’s orbit, then so too are the men I will introduce below.
SCPD, subsequently and consistently has denied any link between the three murdered males found in Manorville, 2000, 2003 and 2012, despite being in relative proximity to Jessica Taylor and Valerie Mack (who were also found along Ocean Parkway in the Gilgo Beach area).
But, is this accurate?
Not by a long shot…..here is why…
What if LISK selected both women and men, to moderately groom and ultimately murder?
Before I get to that, I wanted to thoroughly look at Sexual Serial Killers in general. Many SK’s are compulsion killers- driven towards certain criteria and/or opportunities, but predominantly, sexually driven:
There are precedents of bisexual serial killers:
Serial killers have many overlapping traits, which seem like MO’s to the average person, but this is actually not the case. Each known serial killer is wholly unique and while there are some similarities, it is foolish to try to relegate any one of them into a box of characteristics and call it expertise, or “definitive”.
LISK clearly has a female “preference”. Petite, 5’-5’5”, 100 -110 lbs., hazel/green eyes. The “attributed” LISK Victims all share these characteristics. (Side note: less than 5% of the world’s population has hazel eyes, in the US, it’s closer to 18%). The narrative here is that it was easier to “control” smaller, lighter women, but not necessarily the case. Eye color preference is a derivative of paraphilia and may represent for LISK, a catalyst, rooted in his childhood or early developmental experiences or fantasies.
With the males we see a different trend, notably because males tend to be larger overall. But the methods of their deaths have some consistency.
For now, I will focus on just the time frame of 1990-2016. I will add background where relevant. To be fair, some of the criteria I used is lacking depth and is tenuous, however, for example, at that time, it was well known that a male wearing one earring is representing themselves as gay in many circles, whereas nowadays, it is not.
Also notable:
Here is a more detailed list that incorporates both attributed and possible victims:
Connectivity Avenues:
It appears that victims who worked the streets were dismembered, compared to escorts who advertised online, (assuming the same for FIJD, Peaches).
Sources and Links:
SEXUAL SERIAL MURDER AND DEVELOPMENTAL THEORY
RETURN OF FLEET WEEK
EYE COLOR PREFERENCE AND PARAPHILIA
HAZEL EYES
MALIGNANT SEX AND AGGRESSION: AN OVERVIEW OF SERIAL SEXUAL HOMICIDE
ISRAEL KEYES
REDDIT CROSSPOST
REVISITING 10 UNSOLVED LGBTQA+ MURDERS IN DC
MAP
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2023.06.01 20:41 BusinessUpper645 I'm waiting for my partner to die. There's just nothing more I can do

TW: suicide.
I dont think he will make it through this mental health relapse and I still feel responsible. I spend every day waiting for a call from an unknown number to hear he's jumped in front of a train like he plans to. I would just immediately take an overdose. I can't handle this and I feel so alone.
I have my own burdens and I am having to be super vigilant and keep him safe while they're about to discharge him from the ward because 'nothing more can be done' and he's 'not showing any signs of improvement'. I think a month at most. I've tried my best. I got them to change his antidepressants but they aren't going to keep him in hospital for long enough to see if they're effective. They're going to discharge him home to me - me who is coping with substance abuse silently wishing she dies in her sleep. I'm not equipped for this. I'm not a carer. I'm a young woman with my own mental illness to take care of. I'm having to put my life on hold - fuck, my own needs on hold - to make sure he lives another day.
I just have a horrible feeling he won't make it. I won't either. I'm scared. I'm scared of being abandoned by the only person who has ever shown me safety, security, love, kindness, respect and peace. The only person who has never raised his voice at me.
I can't stay hopeful much longer that he will make it. I know rationally it's not my fault but if I hadn't mentioned it... he wouldn't be going through this. I'm mentally starting the grieving process. I have been for weeks. I was a mess at my therapist appointment yesterday. It was only my second one and I was in hysterics crying.
We are only fucking young. He's barely an adult. 20. We have been together 4 years and gone through shit that no normal high school relationships go through. I know he's my soulmate and I don't know how I'd ever find anyone else. I'm autistic and struggle to make friends let alone find people willing to be in a relationship with me let alone a healthy one. I'm scared he will be forever 20. I'm scared I'm going to be forever 21. I'm too young to be dealing with this.
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2023.06.01 20:31 Strict-Delivery2942 Help - Trying to design a wireless solution for my employer - 1 UDMProSE or CKG2P w access points across different subnets (via VPN) - Will this be viable (details within)

Apologies for sounding stupid if this is impossible but my brain wants it to be. I have experience installing and managing various Unifi deployments for Network (WiFi), Protect etc. I've configured camera and network setups in various homes and businesses but I've never tried to scale it to a small enterprise so I'm having new dilemmas to solve.
I work for a small company that has various locations / buildings / offices in the same city as well as in other cities around the country. Most of our locations currently use individual AP's (some unifi, some EnGenius, TPlink etc.) for each building and broadcast a similar or identical SSID for each of the properties. Most of the stand alone locations work ok (only the small ones with limited coverage / sq ft needs) but we have several that have multiple AP's broadcasting the same SSID's within a particular building. Of course this causes numerous issues with handoff's, roaming, channel interference, etc. etc. etc. So I'm trying to come up with the best path to move them into a wired mesh future with proper handoffs and improved security and performance.
Most of our properties are configured with Cisco routers at the head of each circuit with a VPN configuration to the main facility. Some properties that have limited security requirements for their equipment are connected strictly with an ISP small business circuit (cable, fiber, etc.). Most are static but not all. Before I go further, I'd like to clarify that I'm less concerned with this working as intended for circuits missing a router and VPN tunnel so we can disregard those for discussion purposes if its not possible to implement but if possible I'd like to explore how as well.
Would it be possible to connect and configure a single cloud controller (UDMProSE or CKG2P, or even a stand alone server running the cloud service) at one of our primary facilities within the secured network and connect / manage AP's across other sites at other locations and cities with that single controller or would I have to place a controller at each building / facility to manage the AP's connected within that particular subnet?
I'm aware of total count limitations for AP's, cameras etc. and I'm not intending to use Protect but just wondering how I can configure the networking / routing / or visibility of the AP's through one controller. Would AP's connected to other subnets via VPN tunnels to our main facility appear for adoption etc.? We can work on allowing any required ports through the firewall for communication of the discovery protocols if necessary.
To that point, would any traffic traversing an AP from one of these hypothetical configurations at another city have to pass through and exit the main facilities ISP where the controller is connected or can traffic be configured to route / exit directly from the AP to the web via that locations ISP, bypassing the tunnel for web traffic?
Put another way, can we connect the AP's at these other facilities to the internal network, discover and adopt them with a remote controller for cloud management and still have the traffic route normally out of the locations ISP?
How do large enterprises with multiple locations / cities manage similar networks and route their traffic? Do they use dedicated SDWAN circuits that shape and route the traffic or some direct MPLS or similar circuits backhauling all the traffic to the main locations (controller location) ISP for exit to the web?
I hope that wasn't too convoluted. Any help would be greatly appreciated!
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2023.06.01 19:39 shrimp99991 Faint feeling for 18 months

31yo white male in US, 5'7" 185lbs. Taking Aleve and Tylenol for joint pain, non smokedrinkesubstance user. Rheumatoid, TMJ.
Starting around December 2021, I began to develop a lightheadedness and faint feeling. This has gotten progressively worse since then, to the point that I don't feel comfortable driving 5 minutes to work. The best way that I can describe it is a drunk feeling all the time. My short-term memory and ability to focus is also noticeably worse. I have constant fatigue and never feel well rested after sleeping. Tinnitus that I have had my entire life is considerably worse. I have also noticed that I am much more sensitive to any supplement that impacts my brain; for example, caffeine, alcohol (I haven't had a drink in 6 months), prescription sleeping medications. I hadn't noticed that I was more sensitive to these things until getting dental work and using NO2, and not being able to tolerate even the lowest amount of it without my vision blurring and fading after about 30 seconds.
One of the first things that my doctor checked was TSH, which was high in February of 2022 (41 mU/L) and was started on Levothyroxine. My TSH normalized after a couple of months, and dropped below 0.4 mU/L, and I was taken off of the medication. My TSH has been in a normal range ever since. Neurology believes everything is normal, and I had a normal brain MRI without contrast in April 2022. I have been receiving treatment for mild sleep apnea for a couple of months, but symptoms are continuing to worsen, so I don't think it's related to that. I've monitored my blood sugar and blood pressure, and neither have ever been abnormal. I also saw cardiology in April 2021 for PVC palpitations which resolved on their own. Ultrasound performed on heart and carotid artery were both normal at that time. Bilateral TMJ began at the same time as all of these symptoms, caused by Invisalign, but I'm not sure how that could be related. Audiology didn't believe I had any inner ear problems or vertigo.
I'd like to have some ideas to suggest for testing the next time I see my primary care doctor. Any ideas or suggestions on how to tackle this would be greatly appreciated. I have never felt so hopeless and broken within my own body, and I'll do what ever it takes to feel normal again.
Edit: Formatting
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2023.06.01 19:39 Important_Number3995 My (34F) bf (35M) gets defensive and angry when I share my feelings

Me and my bf have been together for 1.5 years. I do have childhood trauma and relationship trauma, and because of this I was weary of being in relationships for a couple years before we started dating, but I've known him for over 10 years and I felt very comfortable with him. I gave us a chance. Now I'm wondering if this situation is right for us.
Since my last relationship, I have done a lot of healing and working on personal growth. I got better at communicating and expressing myself. He has experienced abuse in a past relationship and there are times when we trigger each other, but the work I've done on myself helped me to recognize this. So I'm really careful about the way I talk to him, choosing my words with empathy and understanding. He doesn't seem to get this and honestly lashes out at me and says mean things to hurt me instead of trying to talk.
If I just go with the flow and pretend that I'm not sad or hurting or feeling alone (when I am) everything is fine. We will have a great night and he is loving and sweet. But if I ever try to talk to him about how I feel, or address something that hurts my feelings in our relationship, 9 times out of 10 he instantly gets defensive and very angry. He starts interrupting me, invalidating me, bombarding me with issues he has with our relationship (which he refuses to acknowledge until I bring up my concerns and acts like everything is fine until he blows up on me) and he starts accusing me of things that mostly aren't true (you always do this, you never do that) and putting words in my mouth, and telling ME what MY intentions and thoughts are (based on his filter that has been shaped by past abuse I believe), projecting (telling me I'm the one interrupting etc.) and accusing me of things his ex did. All of this, and we never get back to the issue I initially brought up because I'm playing damage control and telling him how much I care about him because I don't want him to hurt.
So nothing I bring up ever gets discussed. If I try to start a conversation by asking if everything is going okay on his end, he says we are fine and everything is good until he blows up on me at a later time, which makes it obvious there are issues that he is either unwilling or unable to face. He has thrown my trauma in my face, called me names, and told me he doesn't care anymore. After everything blows over, he acts like everything is okay, I guess he blew off some steam and thinks that's a healthy way to vent his frustrations. At this point I'm still sad, but he tells me the fight "wasn't that bad" because no one got hit, his ex was physically abusive. But I keep having to say that it's not normal and the things he says and way he demeans me makes me feel terrible, even suicidal. He gets mad and tells me I need to be confident, but I ask him how I'm supposed to be confident when the one that loves me treats me so badly.
I know it's not my job to heal him. I'm tired of the cycle because even on good days I'm sad and scared that an argument will erupt. For a long time I thought it was me, I know I'm not perfect and I make mistakes. But the difference between us is that when relationship issues are brought up, the whole time I'm begging him to be respectful, listen, stop interrupting, and stop calling me names. And he is interrupting, yelling, accusing me of things that aren't always true, putting words in my mouth, laughing and mocking me, telling me I need to "tighten up" or leave, etc. I'm willing to talk but he is not.
I live with him and don't have many options when it comes to moving out, I don't know what to do. I think these are all red flags, but would like some input on how normal this is, due to my abuse sometimes I dont see the red right in front of me.
Is this normal? What are some better ways I can communicate?
TL;DR: bf gets angry and defensive when I bring up my feelings and emotions and I'm not sure if this is normal.
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2023.06.01 19:35 lurkerboy96 Best non-party activities for a new boomer?

Hey y'all, this will be my first Boom and 2nd ever psy festival.
I'm excited for the music for sure, but even more so I'm coming for the community aspect! I want to get involved with as many interesting workshops as possible, and last time I looked at the website I didn't see a complete list. Not sure what it's like normally.
What can I expect? and how could I make the most of the experience with activities like this?
I've seen that it gets crazy hot during the day so I'm not sure how many activities like this happen during the day and how exhausted one can expect to get between them.
I'll definitely be partying, but I don't really use substances apart from herb and a little acid here and there... so I don't think I'll be going crazy partying every night.
Any advice and perspectives are welcome, thanks in advance for all the answers!
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2023.06.01 19:18 TorroesPrime Regarding Thrawn

Regarding Thrawn
WARNING: This post contains spoilers about the Star Wars: Rebels series. If you have not yet watched the series (Why not?) and intend to but wish to avoid spoilers (Seriously, go watch it already), do not read this post.

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I think I'm in the minority when I say: I am not enthused about the live-action Thrawn, and it's because of how he was handled in Rebels.
Now do not misunderstand me. I am not saying he was a bad charactevillain in Rebels, nor am I trying to make some sort of bs gate-keeping argument of "If you like the Rebels thrawn you're not a real SW fan" or whatever. I will fight to keep the fandom open and inviting to everyone. Just because I like A, C, M, and X, while you like A, B, M, and dislike X does not change that and I will happily welcome a discussion on why you think X is bad or B is better than C.
Thrawn was a welcome change to the show. He was way more dangerous than Khallus had been with more resources giving him a broader range of threat, and he was easily 10 times more interesting than the Inquisitors. On a 1:1 comparison Maul was more engaging... but that engagement came at a price and had Maul shown up as much as Thrawn had, I think he would have gotten very annoying. So overall, I think Thrawn was the best villain the show had.
However, I feel the Thrawn we got in Rebels is a very different character to the Thrawn in legends, and between the two, the legends Thrawn is superior. And yes, I know current Star Wars isn't Legends so a lot of the characters have been reinterpreted. I get that. But in Thrawn's case, it's a little bit different. I don't feel that they reinterpreted him. I think they fundamentally misunderstood him from the start. Basically, Rebels wrote Thrawn performing the correct actions and mannerisms but without the context. It's almost like watching Luke battle Vader on the Death Star but without the context that it's father and son. Sure, the actions are the same, but without the context, it's not the same scene.
Here's the thing about Thrawn and how he appeared in legends: he lost, multiple times. Which isn't a problem in and of itself. We typically want to see the good guys win and thus the bad guys lose. But with Thrawn, that tends to twist sideways a bit. See with Thrawn, defeats actually made him even more dangerous later because he learned from them and frequently used the tricks his enemies had bested him with against them. So "Winning today" wasn't enough with Thrawn. An example of where I think Rebels failed to hit this point is the episode "Hera's Heroes". In it, Hera attempts to retrieve her Kalikori on Ryloth and is captured. When she and the others escape, they manage to do so by destroying the building the Imperials are in, and then Thrawn decides to not fire on them as they make their escape. Thrawn says the right things; "They have earned their victory today" and then later "I've found this whole experience to be very enlightening." Yes, that is typically the vibe and feeling Thrawn gave off in legends when he lost.
And you can absolutely make the assumption that he's referring to learning something about Hera personally, or perhaps about the Imperial commander or something vague like that... but that just adds to the problem. In Legends when Thrawn "learned" something, it became obvious later what that something was.
How do I think Rebels could have done this aspect of Thrawn better?
Well, let's take the same situation from Hera's Heros. Hera and company have been captured, the Thrawn is on station with the fleet, and Captian Slavin is on the ground. The charges go off, mass confusion, the Ghost comes in, Hera and Ezra leap aboard and the Ghost moves to fly off. But Thrawn moves his ships to cut off their escape. This is where the Ghost crew plays their ace in the hole.
Let's say they rigged up a sort of chaff screen. Basically, they put an explosive charge at the bottom of a bunch of barrels, then packed the barrels with strange of something like aluminum foil. Something light and cut into strips and small bits. The material futz when sensors but it's not enough for outright stealth capabilities and its ballistic strength is rather nill which is why it's not used for stealth treatment or armor on ships. But they assemble like a dozen of these barrels and then mount them on the outside of the Ghost.
When the charges blow the materials are flung out and float around so that the Ghost would be totally obscured for a few seconds in a massive cloud of sensor distortion. The sensors cannot lock onto the Ghost while the foil and debris is fluttering and floating around, the material is reflective so it's blinking reflected light everywhere making it hard to make manual shots, and with all the material floating around it's exceptionally difficult to actually see the Ghost. They can fire into the cloud of foil and debris sure, and there is a chance the Imperials would hit the Ghost, but the chaff screen would take it from a roughly 2:3 hit:miss to something like a 1:4 hit:miss.
It's a total one-time use hack that's only actually usable for a couple of seconds, before the foil and material float to the ground, and then afterward they have the now empty barrels on the ship that the rebels have to address, and prepping them is resource and time intensive.... but the couple of seconds of cover it buys is how they managed to escape. Not because Thrawn allowed them to leave, but because they managed to have one more trick up their sleeve Thrawn didn't know about. So we have the crew of the Ghost being adaptive, inventive, and wiley in their escape. Good. Thrawn has seen the trick and he says "He has been enlightened". Okay, he's seen this trick used and his mind is working on adapting, countering, and using it.
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Now to establish the payoff and demonstrate how Thrawn learns from his defeats, let's move to when Thrawn is pursuing Mon Mothma. In the episode, Mothma transfers to the Ghost, and to evade the Imperials, Hera takes the Ghost into a Nebula. Because of various factors, let's say that there are five ways out of the Nebula and Thrawn only has the resources to really cover three of them, at least to a degree that would result in capturing the Ghost.
He devises a plan and orders a flight of Bombers outfitted with a similar chaff screen, deploys them to one of the two courses that imperial naval doctrine wouldn't normally cover, and moves a wing of Star Destroyers to cover the other while leaving only a light Cruiser at the original location Imperials would typically cover. He then sends the Defender into the Nebula after the Rebels. As the Ghost makes its way through the Nebula, Thrawn orders the Bombers to detonate the screen. Since it's being used in space rather than on a planet here, the mesh doesn't fall to the ground and instead just floats outward creating an ever-expanding field of sensor distortion until it dissipates.
Hera see's the sensor distortion and reasons that Thrawn is using it to hide a Star Destroyer or an Interdictor. Something like "The chaff will blind our sensors if we try to fly through it giving the tractor beam operators time to line us up in their sights manually". And at first, she would opt to alter course to the original exit, the one now covered by a single light cruiser, and instead second-guesses herself reasoning Thrawn has set a trap there and so opts to go for the third way out... the one that Thrawn has a wing of Star Destroyers waiting at.
See how the earlier defeat actually helps him gain a later victory? or at the very least makes him more difficult for the heroes to overcome? Even if we want to add a scene where something else happens, let's say the second wing of Gold Squad and Kanan show up and do something to disrupt Thrawn's trap, you can easily continue forward here with Hera doubting herself as a commander since she flew right into Thrawn's trap. So even if Thrawn fails to capture Mothma and the Spectre Rebels, he would have a victory. I didn't get this feeling from Thrawn in Rebels.
But there were three other things with the Rebels' Thrawn that stand out for me as examples of how they misunderstood Thrawn.
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The first is, once again, in the episode "Hera's Heroes". Following Thrawn's capture of Hera and Ezra, Thrawn is commenting on Hera's Kalikori and Captain Slavin refers to the Kalikori as trash yet again. In response to the comment, Thrawn becomes visibly angry and grabs Slavin's collar as if he is preparing to throw him to the ground. After a brief moment of it looking like Thrawn is about to beat Slavin until his skin is bluer thanThrawns, Thrawn releases Slavin, apologizes, comments about how he forgets that not everyone appreciates art ashe does, and walks off, giving the entire exchange the vibe of it being a "moment of anger" or a momentary loss of control.
Here is the thing about Thrawn, as least as he appeared in legends, he did not get angry... well sort of. He wasn't emotionless, but he was cold and controlled. If something got him visibly irked it had to be a massive, far-spreading, very deep something. One moronic captain who doesn't see the value in art is not such a thing.
This also dovetails into other areas. In legends, the Empire was very human-centric. It had non-human officers and crew to be sure, but they tended to run in 2 extremes. 1- This is a crew of fuck-ups whom the higher-ups just flat out do not care about or 2- they were an 'exception'. Maybe they were a spec-ops team, maybe they had force abilities, maybe they hand anti-force abilities, whatever. They were given an 'exception' to the normal rules and it was policy to show them respect.
Now I will fully admit that this next part is somewhat head-cannony/fan-cannony/subjective but I still think it is valid. Thrawn was in a third category, that of the non-human that wasn't an exception or a screw-up but one who rose through the ranks on the virtue of accomplishment and in so doing was actually a metaphor for workplace racism/sexism. What do I mean by that? Well if the Empire was human-centric, then humans are going to be given more chances, fewer restrictions, and be less scrutinized than non-humans. Basically, if a human officer does well then "That is what excepted of [human] officers" but if a non-human officer does well it will either be "That is very impressive for someone from that species" or they will be held to standards that the human officer isn't so even though they did as well, they would be made to look worse in some capacity. Perhaps they would lose points for taking out target 6 after target 7, or for not performing a Temari roll maneuver properly, despite completing the simulation with a better outcome then the human officer did.
And likewise, if a human officer screws up there would be a far greater chance they would be given another chance or less harsh punishment compared to the non-human officer. If two human officers were caught brawling, chances are that it would be written off as something like an isolated incident brought on by stress. Maybe they would have notices put in their files for psych evals. But if a human officer and a non-human officer were brawling, it would likely be cast as the human officer was being attacked by the non-human officer and the incident would be reported and prosecuted as an example of how members of the non-human species are less controlled, more dangerous, less capable, etc. when compared to human officers.
So for Thrawn to have risen through the ranks under that system... it wouldn't have been enough for him to just be "Good" or "Capable". He would have had to have been 3x as good and capable as the human officers, and 4x as clean. If a human officer completed a tactical simulation in 9 minutes 45 seconds on their 5th attempt, Thrawn would have had to have completed it in under 8 minutes on his first try to be noticed. Grabbing an officer as he did in the episode would probably have landed him in the brig with a stack of demerits. So he would have needed to keep himself under the absolute tightest control. What might be considered general indifference from a human officer, might be regarded as insubordination from Thrawn.
Now I admit the new-cannon Empire hasn't been stated as being human-centric, at least not to the degree that the legends Empire was so I'm willing to give the Rebels Thrawn half a pass on this particular point and leave it at I think it was out of character for Thrawn to lose his cool over a moronic officer like that.
However, this means I need to bring up the inverse situation as well. Specifically, a time when Thrawn really should have lost his cool. And that time was following the death of Kanan and Governor Pryces' attempt to obscure the fact that she just crashed all Imperial production, including the development of the TIE-Defender, on Lothal by holding a victory parade. While I disagree with having Thrawn be in charge of the TIE-Defender development, at this point in the series I'll just roll with it.
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Thrawn's project as been called into question, so he has gone back to Coruscant to argue for the continued support of it. It's already going to be a close fight since he is competing with the Death Star for support and funding. And chances are he would be dealing with politicians. In legends, Thrawn had a general disdain for politicians. He knew how to work with and around them, but they tended to make situations more complicated and thus would require ten times the effort and resources to address.
And then he finds out that, no matter what happens on Coruscant, the Defender development will be delayed because the factories on Lothal can't operate at all right now because Pryce blew up the fuel depot. Oh... and what's this? Not only did she blow them up, but she's trying to hide the fact by declaring victory. If that isn't a "kill the patient to cure the virus" situation, I don't know what is. But on top of that, this will very likely hurt Thrawn on a logistical, political, and career level. If the project is already stopped due to a resource problem... why commit more resources to it? So Pryce has just roundly screwed Thrawn over.

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I think this should have been the moment where we see Thrawn lose his cool. Perhaps not in his conversation with Pryce, but if he was going to lose his cool this would be it. Perhaps he tells Pryce "I will address your situation upon my return." in his normally cool, calm demeanor, and then ends the transmission. But on the Chimera, as soon as the transmission ends, he is utterly fuming. Teeth gritted, eyes twitching. He tears off his uniform coat, activates the assassin droids, arms them with lethal weapons, and just goes to town fighting them. Where before he occasionally made grunts, here is full-on rage screaming. A means of showing the ferocity that is heading to Lothal and what is normally held in check. Don't make it a weakness. It's not a case of "Make him angry so he'll make a mistake", rather show us the passion that drives him. Make us genuinely afraid for Pryce, not because Thrawn might kill her, but because now we understand why she hopes that he will only kill her.
The last point that I think Rebels failed with Thrawn... okay look. I'm gonna be upfront and say this one is totally subjective. That's why I've waited till now to mention it. During the siege of Atollon, Khallus tries to goad Thrawn regarding Konstantine's glory hunting. Thrawn's response is to simply state " I do not require glory, only victory for my Emperor." This really gives me a feeling of the Rebels Thrawn being an Empire loyalist while in legends he was loyal to the Empire only as a means to an end. In legends, Thrawn's First priority was to project the Chiss ascendency and it is inferred that his second priority was to prepare to counter the Yhuzon Vong invasion... though this second point is somewhat subjective. Basically in legends, as long as the Empire was the best means to his goals, Thrawn was loyal to it. But I never got a feeling he would be loyal to the Empire over his own goals. In Rebels... yeah, it feels very much the opposite and that Thrawn's goals are secondary to the Empire, or more specifically the Emperor.
And just to be clear on that point I am not saying that Legends Thrawn was secretly some sort of subversive or that every action he ever took was exclusively for his own goals. He wasn't that short-sighted. He absolutely would support the Empire's goals today, even if they were to the detriment of the Chiss in the short term, if it meant Thrawn would be in a better position to protect the Chiss long term.
Okay okay, rant over. I've heard that Timothy Zhan is working with the writers of Ahsoka. If that is true that gives me some hope that the live-action Thrawn will be closer to legends Thrawn.
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2023.06.01 19:05 BeingBalanced Agmatine Experience Thus Far

I try to keep my stack simple with the primary goal of mitigating chronic stress and susceptibility to anxiety so I'm looking for substances that are neuromodulators with the least potential for short term and long-term side effects. I've spent hours reading studies and posts here on this substance. It is one of the few that seems to not have widespread reports of long-term side effects if you dial in the dosing regimen to your personal needs/chemistry. A very simplified description used is that it is like a much milder version of Ketamine as far as its effects, primarily due to being an antagonist of N-methyl-d-aspartate (NMDA). It appears the strongest evidence is for use for treating neuropathic pain and potentiating many drugs thereby lessening tolerance over time. Many think it is good for athletic performance but there is not strong well-designed studies on that so it could be "Bro Science" being it has an effect but not as large as one might believe. Other studies indicate it can help with depression which makes sense being that it is neuromodulation and sort of a mild form of Ketamine.
Experiences vary more widely on this substance than any other Nootropic I've studied. If you aren't using it for Neuropathic pain or to potentiate pain killers, anecdotal evidence indicates you don't need to take that much. Published recommendations are in about the 150-475mg range (mainly based on your weight). I bought bulk powder from Amazon that had a good review profile. 500mg scoop. I experimented with 250mg to 750mg and have not been able to notice a big difference in that dose range so I've settled on the mid point at 350mg. Note that Nootropics depot sells this in 250mg caps as the owner has stated here that his opinion is that a lot of people overdue it on the dosage needed. However one study had several people take 2.7g a day for 5 years with apparently no ill effects but I note the study was mainly looking at all sorts of blood markers and doesn't mention anything about what happens to you mentally when you stop taking it after taking so much for so long. This is why I plan to stick to 350mg and do some cycling with other things like Acetyl-L-Carnitine or Rhodiola Rosea so I'm not taking the same exact stack day after day.
What I've notice so far is it has moderately improved how I feel mentally, feeling less stressed with a more positive attitude and a bit more motivation. But the effect has been mild, not night and day, but after 3 weeks I have this gut feeling it is having a cumulative effective and I am feeling slightly better over time. Interestingly I find that my alcohol consumption, for whatever reason has lessened from 2-3 glasses of wine a night to 1-2 (I'm a male, 5'-11", 185 lbs.) I'm guessing it possibly could be potentiating the alcohol so I get I don't need to drink as much to get that same unwinding relaxed feeling in the evening during and after dinner. I'm also a previous vaper and occasionally get cravings for nicotine which I don't act on, and this definitely has lessened my occasional nicotine cravings.
Overall I feel there are positive enough, albeit mild, results to continue to include it in my stack cycling. I believe it is helping restore my neurotransmitter balance that has been thrown off by years of chronic stress which has dysregulated my HPA axis. My personal opinion is that it's a safemilder alternative for normalizing the HPA axis compared to taking more direct neurotransmitter pre-cursors like Tryptophan, Mucuna Pruriens, 5-HTP, etc.
A side note, for some, if you take enough, this supposedly can drop your blood sugar (and blood pressure a little) and thereby make you hungry and grumpy/irritated. I don't eat breakfast and can confirm there does seem to be a mild effect it makes me a little more hungry and even occasionally a little light-headed when I stand up so I would recommend not taking it in the middle of fasting. This would explain anecdotal reports I've seen on here of this making some people very irritable, most likely due to low blood sugar.
Oh and for those wondering what else I take, as mentioned I cycle this with or sometimes in addition to agmatine I'll take Aceyl-L-Carnitine or Rhodiola Rosea, occasionally 100mg Teacrine for basically long-acting alternative to caffeine (200mg I found makes me significantly more susceptible to anxiety), Taurine (1g nightly), Theanine (only when I drink coffee or take caffeine), low-dose Vitamin C (250mg), Vitamin D (10,000-30,000 IU a week depending on time of year), Vitamin K (MK-7) 2-3 times a week, moderate dose Calcium+Magnesium, and occasionally methylated B-complex. I have a Flexitarian diet (primarily vegetarian with moderate amounts of meat, mainly fish) and don't do dairy (always hated milk) - this is the primary reason I take Acetyl-L-Carnitine, Taurine, and Calcium+Magnesium with occasional B-complex.
A few references that I found particularly interesting for those that want to read up more on it:
Long-term (5 years), high daily dosage of dietary agmatine--evidence of safety: a case report
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/25247837/
Perspectives on agmatine neurotransmission in acute and chronic stress-related conditions
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/36698237/
Agmatine attenuates chronic unpredictable mild stress-induced anxiety, depression-like behaviours and cognitive impairment by modulating nitrergic signalling pathway
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/28302445/
Agmatine-based pain treatment avoids opioid addiction
https://www.mwdrugdevelopment.com/speakers/agmatine-based-pain-treatment-avoids-opioid-addiction/
Or of course you can always go the the motherload for info and references:
https://examine.com/supplements/agmatine/

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2023.06.01 19:00 InNEEDofaCOFFEE Why is abuse to hospital staff normalized or tolerated?

I'm a med-surg nurse who works at an inner city hospital for the past 2-3 years. My unit isn't a "psych" unit but we do often get the psych patients that end up staying in the floor for weeks to months. Often patients will have historys of domestic abuse, non-compliance with staff, refusing cares, violence towards staff, substance abuse or dimentia that oresents with behavior disterbances.
A few patients come to mind who will get away with verbally threatening to hurt staff, screaming profanity or doing everything in their power to just act like an asshole. Sometimes they are truly confused and can't help it while other times it's intentional.
I had been stuck with the same assignment for a week with one patient who did everything in his power to make those around him miserable. After getting off a shift with him, I couldn't focus on other tasks. I felt panic and anxiety that hadn't been a problem for years.
I'm fortunate enough to work in a union backed hospital where I can refuse assignments without reprocussions for any reason. At previous jobs, I couldn't refuse an assignment. So for the first time in my career, I refused an assignment with him. All of this built up stress and anxiety that had been building to a boiling point for the past week just vanished.
I have a history of being on the receiving end of domestic abuse and feel like something about this patient just brought all that back up to the surface. I'm sad it took me so long to connect my decline in mental health to an abusive patient but proud I got myself out of the situation. Has anyone else taken a hot second to realize that a patient threatening you is not normal?
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2023.06.01 18:10 DagothHertil MoonSharp or How we combined JSON and LUA for game ability management

Introduction

During the development of our card game Conflux we wanted to have an easy way to create various abilities for our cards with different effects and at the same time wanted to write smaller amount of code per ability. Also we wanted try and add a simple modding capability for abilities.

Format we introduced

Some of you may be familiar with MoonSharp LUA interpreter for C#, often use in Unity engine to add scripting support to your game. That's what we took as a base for writing the code for abilities. Each ability can subscribe to different events such as whenever a card takes damage, is placed on the field or ability is used manually on some specific targets. Besides having event handlers we needed a way to specify some metadata like mana cost of abilities, cooldown, icon, etc. and in the first iteration of the system we had a pair of JSON metadata file and LUA code file.
It was fine initially but we quickly realized that abilities typically have ~20 lines of JSON and ~20 lines of LUA code and that having two files per ability is wasteful so we developed a simple format which combines both the JSON and LUA.
Since LUA code could never really be a valid JSON (unless you are ok with slapping all the code into a single line or is ok with escaping all the quotes you have) we put the JSON part of the abilities into the LUA script. First LUA block comment section within the script is considered as a JSON header.
Here is an example of "Bash" ability in LUA (does damage and locks the target cards):
--[[ { "mana_cost": 0, "start_cooldown": 0, "cooldown": 3, "max_usage": -1, "icon": "IconGroup_StatsIcon_Fist", "tags": [ "damage", "debuff", "simple_damage_value" ], "max_targets": 1, "is_active": true, "values": { "damage": 5, "element": "physical" }, "ai_score": 7 } --]] local function TargetCheck() if Combat.isEnemyOf(this.card.id, this.event.target_card_id) then return Combat.getAbilityStat(this.ability.id, "max_targets") end end local function Use() for i = 1, #this.event.target_card_ids do Render.pushCardToCard(this.card.id, this.event.target_card_ids[i], 10.0) Render.createExplosionAtCard("Active/Bash", this.event.target_card_ids[i]) Render.pause(0.5) Combat.damage(this.event.target_card_ids[i], this.ability.values.damage, this.ability.values.element) Combat.lockCard(this.event.target_card_ids[i]) end end Utility.onMyTargetCheck(TargetCheck) Utility.onMyUse(Use) 

Inheritance for abilities

It may be a completely valid desire to have a way to reuse the code of some abilities and just make some small adjustments. We solved this desire by having a merge function for JSON header data which will look for a parent field within the header and will look for the data based on the ID provided in this parent field. All the data found is then merged with the data provide in the rest of the current JSON header. It also does it recursively, but I don't foresee actually using this functionality as typically we just have a generic ability written and then the inherited ability just replaces all it needs to replace.
Here is an example on how a simple damaging ability can be defined:
--[[ { "parent": "Generic/Active/Elemental_projectiles", "cooldown": 3, "icon": "IconGroup_StatsIcon01_03", "max_targets": 2, "values": { "damage": 2, "element": "fire", "render": "Active/Fireball" }, "ai_score": 15 } --]] 
So as you can see there is no code as 100% of it is inherited from the parent generic ability.
The way a code in the child ability is handled is that the game will execute the LUA ability files starting from the top parent and will traverse down to the child. Since all the logic of abilities is usually within the event handlers then no actual change happens during the execution of those LUA scripts (just info about subscriptions is added). If the new ability you write needs to actually modify the code of the parent then you can just unsubscribe from the events you know you want to modify and then rewrite the handler yourself.

MoonSharp in practice

MoonSharp as a LUA interpreter works perfectly fine IMO. No performance issues or bugs with the LUA code execution as far as I see.
The problems for us started when trying to use VS code debugging. As in it straight up does not work for us. To make it behave we had to do quite a few adjustments including:

What is missing

While we are mostly satisfied with the results the current implementation there are a couple things worth pointing out as something that can be worked on:

Why not just write everything in LUA?

It is possible to convert the JSON header part into a LUA table. With this you get a benefit of syntax highlight and comments. The downside is that now to read the metadata for the ability you have to run a LUA VM and execute the script if you want to get any info from it. This implies that there will be no read-only access to ability information because the script will inevitably try to interact with some API that modifies the game state (at the very least adds event listener) or you will need to change the API to have a read-only mode.
Another point is that having a simple JSON part in the file let's you use a trivial script to extract it from the .lua file and it then can be used by some external tools (which typically don't support LUA)

TL;DR

Adding JSON as a header to LUA has following pros and cons compared to just writing C# code per ability:
Pros:
Cons:
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2023.06.01 17:55 TheEvenDarkerKnight Sick for one year, including cognitive decline. Don't know what to do.

5'11', 320 lbs, 26M, CoQ10 and multivitamin
Hi, I have been dealing with a problem for over a year. I had high cholesterol for a while and was put on atorvastatin in July 2021. My cholesterol decreased but I began having problems with memory so bad that I did not know how to get to my doctor's office. In April 2022, I asked my NP to quit and she told me I was depressed and put me on 10 mg lexapro but within days of taking it I developed head pressure in the right side of my head (which I still have), dry mouth with white saliva, migraines, yellow stool, and felt sick. I thought all of these were the medications so I decided to just quit them and hope things would resolve. On average it said that memory problems from statins take 3 weeks to go away so I just wait.
The next 6 weeks I continue having problems. I felt like I had amnesia. I thought this was migraines, which I never had previously. I worked from home in a cognitively demanding job and couldn't look at my screen too long or work too long without getting migraines. My brain felt slow. It wasn't like the memory problems I had with statins. My brain felt slower and it was slower to make connections. Things I could do easily I could not anymore, like math and problem solvong. I used to have good memory for things I did the day prior but not anymore. Anyway after 6 weeks I am unable to remember the names of my neighbors and other distressing memory problems like what im supposed to do at work. Visit PCP again and get blood taken. I had slightly elevated ALT, above high normal plasma protein, alanine aminotransferance, and albumin. Decide to see virtual PCP who seems to take me more seriously. I get many memory bloods including B1, thyroid, CBC, glucose, and other vitamins. Main thing is slightly elevated RBC and I am pre-diabetic. I get a shivering, tingling sensation on either side of my head all the time, along with problems with memory (like not knowing the name of my favorite movies). Symptoms improve when I lay flat on my back or taken CoQ10 but get worse with sugar.
Around this time I get sleep apnea test. Sleep doctor, virtual doc, and doc in my family are confident I have sleep apnea due to neck size and reported snoring. I don't get the results until 6 months later indicating I don't have it. I started getting this yellow and blueish mucus coming from my mouth all the time. I visit urgent care but no one is interested in testing the mucus or anything? I get prescribed antibiotics but im scared to take them if I don't know what I'm actually dealing with. Memory issues and headaches get worse. Feels like a shocking sensation on my head. I visit a neurologist who gives me an EEG. EEG is normal, he says I have no issue. A few weeks later I go to the hospital for an emergency visit. They take blood and urine and do tests. Some kidney value was very high but they said no issue and sent me home.
In the fall I feel sicker in my abdominal region, especially after eating. Strange stool, falling asleep after eating, milky white substance as well as excess saliva. Strange, severe ear pain begins, mostly associated with eating. Thumping sounds in ears. Tingling sensation through my body from right side of abdomen. Tingling sensations in head. Sugar headaches. Can't remember the names of my coworkers. Very fatigued. Can't go for walks anymore. I test my glucose at home randomly but it's always normal.
New PCP. I take more blood tests associated with memory. A1C drops to 5.9 from 6.0. Some liver value (I forget what, but not ALT or AST, BUN something?) is very low but I am told no problem. Fired from my job because I am too dumb to do it now.
In February I see a new neurologist. I get sleep deprived EEG, MRI without contrast, and MRA without contrast. Somehow all normal. She diagnoses me with chronic fatigue syndrome, deja vu seizure disorder, and a few migraine conditions. I am prescribed Nurtec. It relieves head pressure but doesn't resolve cognitive issues.
Shortly after, I visit new doc PCP about stool problems. I get stool studies which I am still waiting for the results on. Through this whole time I suddenly developed problems with erections and libido. When I was on statins my testicles appeared weird, like they shrunk. Hair also became very thin. Didn’t become real problem until recently. Visit another virtual doctor who gets me a urologist referral but i will have to wait for when I have insurance again. I know my weight is high but I've lost 30 lbs with no improvement. As for COVID, I have three vaccinations and was strict in regards to masking and distancing until mid 2022. I took several tests from March 2022 to the end of last year with no positive once.
Is my life over? Did I miss some infection? I was very smart since I was a child and consistently the top of my class. I went to school for engineering. I was a top performer at work. I don't know how that has all seemed to disappear in just some months a year ago. In the five years before this, I got sick maybe only once.
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2023.06.01 17:53 Afoolfortheeons The mental centrifuge and shamanism

You wanna know something weird I do? At the beginning of every month, I try to make the first words out of my mouth to be "rabbit, rabbit." The reason? In between Stick Stickly shorts, Nickelodeon said that it was good luck if you made those words the first thing you say each month. So, as a result, I've been doing that for over twenty-five years. I'm not normally superstitious, but I can't help but feel all the serendipity in my life was caused because I was pleasing some higher dimensional life form with my diligence to abide by the magick of my childhood mind.
What else has roots deep in my youth, I wonder? Naturally, what was in the past has come to shape my entire perception of the present, and will continue to seed what the future horizons look like when I finally reach them. It's like clay that's been shaped in our early years, keeping the same form as it hardens, but it gets more detailed as the potter continues to mould the substance into a finished product.
It's here that I am reminded of procedural generation in video games. Take Minecraft for instance. If you actually read into the little notes as the game generates a new world for you, it starts with a seed, then builds a basic starting area before it begins adding things like trees or caves or rivers. Thus, if you were to watch in real time, you would see a flat, barren wasteland be transformed into something magickal with each new step the program takes.
I really find things like that to be interesting. As an artist, I've spent my fair share of time trying to keep one eye pointed inwards to catch glimpses of how my muse mechanically creates pleasing wordsmithing. I have some idea of how that is, but it's not really in a language that can be transmitted. Like, if I started talking about how the mental centrifuge creates idea saplings by destroying old ideas to perceive what exactly they are made for, sure you get the basic picture, but there's so much that's not conveyed in such a short explanation.
Let's expand on that. With no context, you don't know that the mental centrifuge is almost certainly a result of ADHD. Like, back before the CIA brainwashed me, hell let's go back to before I ever juggled, I would try to take as much caffeine and THC as possible to induce a state where my ideas could not stop jumping between one another. Now, that would result in the strings of my inner dialogue and imagination being cut short, and by being mindful to observe as many of these fragmentations as possible, I saw them without predefined substance. Thus, I would then take these novel string segments and try to create anew with them by taking alternative juncture points, and it was like I was rebirthing ideas from the body of old ones.
This requires quite a bit of randomness, but over the long-term, I have a road map of all the neural pathways that most of my major ideas are stored in. It's like I know that taking the left at the crossroads will take me to a much frequented city while taking the right leads to wilderness with much unexplored territory. Sometimes new cities are built in the wilds, while other times these new discoveries have minimal use.
That's just one aspect of my psyche that exists in personal language and doesn't translate to a wide audience. I suppose that the true final frontier is not outer space, but inner space, and fields like psychology and especially psychiatry are not equipped to accurately explain these phenomena. It's like trying to describe a computer's software by using opinionated conjecture on the state of how the hardware is operating. Sure, there's ones and zeros behind the scene, but when a programmer is making the latest waifu simulator game, they say things like "there's a bug with displaying the pixelated boobies," or "there's a glitch when you ask for feet pics."
That's why we need to bring back shamanism. Shamans are those who have traveled far off the beaten path and gained insight into their mind. We shamans speak in Javascript or whatever language our operating systems support. Metaphor is key to mapping the inner world, and that naturally leads to a fun madness where the shaman may say something that sounds insane to the layman, but really has a sound correlation with the experiential part of being a being who exists as a nervous system of an ape body on a wet rock that's hurtling through space at speeds incomprehensible to said ape.
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2023.06.01 17:52 Afoolfortheeons The mental centrifuge and shamanism

You wanna know something weird I do? At the beginning of every month, I try to make the first words out of my mouth to be "rabbit, rabbit." The reason? In between Stick Stickly shorts, Nickelodeon said that it was good luck if you made those words the first thing you say each month. So, as a result, I've been doing that for over twenty-five years. I'm not normally superstitious, but I can't help but feel all the serendipity in my life was caused because I was pleasing some higher dimensional life form with my diligence to abide by the magick of my childhood mind.
What else has roots deep in my youth, I wonder? Naturally, what was in the past has come to shape my entire perception of the present, and will continue to seed what the future horizons look like when I finally reach them. It's like clay that's been shaped in our early years, keeping the same form as it hardens, but it gets more detailed as the potter continues to mould the substance into a finished product.
It's here that I am reminded of procedural generation in video games. Take Minecraft for instance. If you actually read into the little notes as the game generates a new world for you, it starts with a seed, then builds a basic starting area before it begins adding things like trees or caves or rivers. Thus, if you were to watch in real time, you would see a flat, barren wasteland be transformed into something magickal with each new step the program takes.
I really find things like that to be interesting. As an artist, I've spent my fair share of time trying to keep one eye pointed inwards to catch glimpses of how my muse mechanically creates pleasing wordsmithing. I have some idea of how that is, but it's not really in a language that can be transmitted. Like, if I started talking about how the mental centrifuge creates idea saplings by destroying old ideas to perceive what exactly they are made for, sure you get the basic picture, but there's so much that's not conveyed in such a short explanation.
Let's expand on that. With no context, you don't know that the mental centrifuge is almost certainly a result of ADHD. Like, back before the CIA brainwashed me, hell let's go back to before I ever juggled, I would try to take as much caffeine and THC as possible to induce a state where my ideas could not stop jumping between one another. Now, that would result in the strings of my inner dialogue and imagination being cut short, and by being mindful to observe as many of these fragmentations as possible, I saw them without predefined substance. Thus, I would then take these novel string segments and try to create anew with them by taking alternative juncture points, and it was like I was rebirthing ideas from the body of old ones.
This requires quite a bit of randomness, but over the long-term, I have a road map of all the neural pathways that most of my major ideas are stored in. It's like I know that taking the left at the crossroads will take me to a much frequented city while taking the right leads to wilderness with much unexplored territory. Sometimes new cities are built in the wilds, while other times these new discoveries have minimal use.
That's just one aspect of my psyche that exists in personal language and doesn't translate to a wide audience. I suppose that the true final frontier is not outer space, but inner space, and fields like psychology and especially psychiatry are not equipped to accurately explain these phenomena. It's like trying to describe a computer's software by using opinionated conjecture on the state of how the hardware is operating. Sure, there's ones and zeros behind the scene, but when a programmer is making the latest waifu simulator game, they say things like "there's a bug with displaying the pixelated boobies," or "there's a glitch when you ask for feet pics."
That's why we need to bring back shamanism. Shamans are those who have traveled far off the beaten path and gained insight into their mind. We shamans speak in Javascript or whatever language our operating systems support. Metaphor is key to mapping the inner world, and that naturally leads to a fun madness where the shaman may say something that sounds insane to the layman, but really has a sound correlation with the experiential part of being a being who exists as a nervous system of an ape body on a wet rock that's hurtling through space at speeds incomprehensible to said ape.
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2023.06.01 17:19 Jus17173 Before the hunt - Chapter 34 - This is Not a Space Opera.

First Previous Next Ko-fi
It took three portal jumps through space, warping the travel in cohorts with the jumps to have them hovering over Planet Qwatar. Astor Boy sat in the captain's chair, sweat beading between his brows. A heavy breath gently steadying into short sharp exhales. It had been one of the most tasking jobs he'd ever done and the strain on him was visible.
"You look like a starved ferret." Zahara said from her normal position next to the door leading into the cabin.
"I've just jumped thrice through space, regulating the thrust to jump ratio to ensure the transponder doesn't malfunction mid jump. Forgive me if I'm worse for wear." Astro Boy said while running his hand through his brown wavy hair. Zahara scold at him.
Astro Boy wondered why she seemed so angry whenever she regarded him, he just passed it off as a Solstice thing. A perk of the women who have been oppressed by the empire several times, no doubt Adjuncts have knocked at their door, seeking to implement the Empire's will where it wasn't needed.
"Where are the others?" Zahara asked. They were alone in the cabin.
"They are suiting up." Astro Boy answered.
As if on cue the trio appeared. Juice had fashioned a Lethal strapper hauberk by conjoining three Lethal strappers around his torso, the muscles on his arms bulged from the sides of the vest like structure wrapped around him in a grey brown mesh of insulated thread. He also wore tight leather pants with leg greaves fashioned from Tangle tree bark to his legs. Astro Boy wondered where they'd gotten Tangle tree bark from, he hadn't been paying attention during the gift giving with the Solstice.
Honey appeared next, dressed in a single Lethal strapper that flowed down the length of his body like a robe. This Lethal strapper was of a permanent black hue that tangled in sharp contrast with Honey's pale skin.
"Bring up the scan." Honey said. Tweek followed behind in his usual trousers and shirt with the ugly polka dot tie. The Droid followed last.
Astro Boy hit at the deck buttons and on the screen a layout of the planet's terra structure formed. They hovered just out of orbit, a long way from any orbiting satellites that might spot them.
The screen overlayed an image of a large palace like structure and the heat map indicated several roaming bands of hostiles doing rounds about the palace. It had been Astro Boy's idea to launch an orbital scan of the area once he'd seen the gadgets adorning the warship.
"It appears to be surrounded by roaming bands of hostiles trailing wolves." Astro Boy said.
"How did you know there are wolves?" Zahara asked.
"The heat map shows roaming clusters around several points. I'm betting the points are humans and the clusters of heat being wolves trailing the command." Astro Boy said.
"Quite a smart lad you are, isn't that so Astro Dude?" Zahara asked.
"Enough flirting." Honey Badger interjected, "Lower us south of the palace, there near that water body." He pointed at the screen.
"That's not a water body, it's a mountain." Astro Boy answered.
"Yes, I knew that. was just testing your alertness Astro Dude." Honey Badger said.
"Perhaps we should reconsider going after this Kogi guy. I mean, we can look for another place, somewhere where it's just us and try to make a life for ourselves." Tweek said.
"As it has been said before," Juice started. "There's no peace as long as we are Tevorah, we need to hunt them down or else become the hunted."
"But these ten suitors haven't chased us like the other suitors have done." Tweek argued.
"That's because the date for a hunt hasn't been set yet." Astro Boy said. All heads turned to him. "The ten suitors, now nine have banded together to approach the Tevorah as a whole, the 'when' of this oncoming assault has yet to be decided but it's the talk of the spectrum net. The suitors are hesitant, underestimating you brought about the deaths of The twins of Ashkemar and Genabis the destroyer. The Acrylic weaver is yet to act, some say he's given the West star empire's suitors a go at you first before he acts, just to test your will."
"This Acrylic Weaver, how powerful is he?" Juice asked.
"He represents the Central Star Empire, some say he is augmented in every aspect of the word. His actions are always hidden, he ponders before he acts that's why he is yet to make his will known." Astro Boy answered.
Juice nodded and beckoned with a hand to Honey Badger. Honey reached within his Lethal strapper and unhitched a golden glowing Light Sword which he handed to Juice who tested the weight of the blade with several swishing moves before nodding in acquiescence, the potency of the blade satisfying to him.
"Drop us at the base of that mountain, we'll make a way for the Palace on our own." Juice said. "The tree cover between there and where the heat maps show human traffic is too dense to permit them to see our ship."
Tweek beckoned to Honey Badger as Juice had done but Honey regarded him with an easy glare. "What's those hand gestures for?"
"Well I want a weapon too!" Tweek said. A short silenced ensued that was immediately followed by laughing outbursts from everyone save Tweek.
"This mission isn't for you Tweek." Honey said as the laughter died down.
"I concur, stay with Astro Boy and Zahara on the ship." Juice said.
"But I want to help." Tweek interjected.
"You'll be of better help here, away from danger." Honey Badger said.
"Wait a minute, what do you mean 'Stay with Astro Boy and Zahara?'" Zahara voiced her indifference. "I'm coming with you guys, I haven't killed a man in weeks."
Honey Badger walked towards Zahara and placed a hand on her shoulder which she immediately shook off. "The time for you to show your fangs is yet to come, right now we require stealth not to run in guns blazing. We also require milk—"
"What he's saying is, we need you here on this ship to protect us." Astro Boy interjected.
"You need protecting?" Zahara, leaning over to peer at Astro Boy who nodded.
"Lower us." Juice commanded and Astro Boy moved to work. Tapping blinking buttons and pulling at levers. The ship made its slow descent into the planet Qwatar, barreling through the stratosphere, heating around its cone shaped front as it pushed ever downwards through the planet's gravity pull. Astro Boy maneuvered the ship through dense cloud cover, etching ever lower until the ship's belly scratched at the tree cover. He found a clearing just north of the mountain where he brought the ship to ground.
The middle hatch opened and a ramp formed its way to touch at the pebbled floor of the Planet Qwatar. Juice flexed his shoulders. "Wait here for us." He said while brandishing his sword and made his way to the ramp.
"We're going hunting." Honey Badger said and ejected two plasma pistols from his Lethal strapper. "Do not pray for us." He whispered. "We don't need that bad luck." And together him and Juice left the spaceship to wage war against a planet full of hostiles and roaming wolves.
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2023.06.01 17:03 Vlasow Autistic 30M, venting

TLDR: My life problem is heavy neglect and not understanding myself and being a burden as a result
TW: I don't know, everything, but mostly cringe, just don't read if you're anxious
Thanks for your time
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2023.06.01 17:03 Cold_Communication60 am i in the wrong or is my mum

so it all started 2 days ago when i called my mum out on how it isn't normal to feel uncomfortable when she shows affection and stuff and about how she gaslights me like for example i asked her to get something from the shops and she said it wasn't a problem and when she came home and forgot to she said "i told you to remind me". This has happened many times before. Other things have also happened like for example it all turned into an argument and as of now she has come in my room 3 times soo far.
the first time, she apologised for the 1000th time and started saying how she's sorry and stuff even after on text she was invalidating my feelings by saying shit like "im sorry you feel that way" and "you are the one who is always hurt" on messages.
The 2nd time she came back and started talking about how i've always rejected her efforts to spend time with her
and just now. The third time she started saying things like "but it's okay i'll work my ass off so you can go out with friends and spend money" and "while you wake up late go out or study all day without thinking about the rest of the family" she also started talking about how i apparently have bad relationships with other family members like my grandad when in reality im pretty sure he's just a hothead and gets angry. She also started talking about how she can't wait to see me as a father so that i can see how i'll mirror what they were doing. She was also talking about how bad her childhood was compared to mine and how i always see myself as the victim and how i always blame others when this is one of the few times i've ever stood up for myself like this. Another things she said was "not once do you ever think about asking me if i need help with something"
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2023.06.01 16:51 Cold_Communication60 am i in the wrong or is my mum

so it all started 2 days ago when i called my mum out on how it isn't normal to feel uncomfortable when she shows affection and stuff and about how she gaslights me like for example i asked her to get something from the shops and she said it wasn't a problem and when she came home and forgot to she said "i told you to remind me". This has happened many times before. Other things have also happened like for example it all turned into an argument and as of now she has come in my room 3 times soo far.
the first time, she apologised for the 1000th time and started saying how she's sorry and stuff even after on text she was invalidating my feelings by saying shit like "im sorry you feel that way" and "you are the one who is always hurt" on messages.
The 2nd time she came back and started talking about how i've always rejected her efforts to spend time with her
and just now. The third time she started saying things like "but it's okay i'll work my ass off so you can go out with friends and spend money" and "while you wake up late go out or study all day without thinking about the rest of the family" she also started talking about how i apparently have bad relationships with other family members like my grandad when in reality im pretty sure he's just a hothead and gets angry. She also started talking about how she can't wait to see me as a father so that i can see how i'll mirror what they were doing. She was also talking about how bad her childhood was compared to mine and how i always see myself as the victim and how i always blame others when this is one of the few times i've ever stood up for myself like this. Another things she said was "not once do you ever think about asking me if i need help with something"
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2023.06.01 16:28 blueorphen01 Hydra List with Rogers Avengers splash?

I'm new to MCP and am starting to plan purchases for once I finish painting the core box.
One theme I have been really interested in is doing a Hydra list. And with Hydra, I also think of Hydra Supreme, the alt universe Steve Rogers. So now I think it would be fun to do a list that can be played as normal Hydra or as Rogers Avengers.
I have the core box 10, and I have Spider Woman and Agent Venom. I figured Spider Woman was a good purchase because she seems pretty versatile and is in-faction for both Hydra and Avengers.
In terms of models, my initial plan is:
Hydra: - Baron Strucker - Baron Zemo - Red Skull, Master of Hydra - Spider Woman
Avengers: - Captain America (Steve Rogers) - Scarlet Witch (Strucker shenanigans are a bonus) - Spider Woman
Since Spider Woman doubles up, that's 6 spots total.
Other choices: - Arnim Zola - Winter Soldier - Black Widow - Taskmaster
Zola seems a clear choice. Taskmaster is Hydra and a Rogue Agent for flexibility. Winter Soldier is a thematic choice who works well with Cap and could also help fix affiliation. Black Widow is an Avenger and the 2 threat.
Am I missing anything glaringly obvious? Is this a dumb idea? Honestly I'm more of a paintemodeler than player so i don't need this project to be super competitive or meta, just fun to play.
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2023.06.01 15:35 Ragged57 Ridiculously long exposure time

Hey folks. Newbie here, trying to figure some stuff out. Okay, here’s my set up. I have a 30w led black light about 24” above my 23x31 (160, yellow mesh) screen. Emulsion is diazo, Saati grafik hu. My transparencies are CISinks, nice and opaque. I’m looking at other posts and folks with similar 30w lights have exposure times ranging from a few seconds to 7 minutes.
My step wedge test tells me my exposure time is supposed to be 37 minutes!! And… it works. It just seems insanely long. I bought the 30w light because I thought I could use the wiggle room time-wise, but I don’t need that much. Haha. The transparency has a very milky translucence to it that I hear is normal so I figure it can’t be that.
I guess I just need a stronger light? Or double up the 30w? It just seems so much longer than any exposure time I’ve seen. Thoughts? Thanks!
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2023.06.01 15:09 gaast Package constantly out for delivery to hold location but not being received; FedEx unable to estimate when I will receive my delivery

There's a lot of preface here.
I live in an apartment complex with a mail room. When FedEx tried to deliver my package last Thursday, the delivery failed because they couldn't ask me for my signature.
So they tried again the next day and failed. They tried again the next day and failed.
They didn't actually notify me that this was a problem. I had to go into the tracking information to figure out that apparently (see NOTE at bottom) there's no backup plan for delivering something that requires a signature to a mail room.
But okay, whatever, I figure out that this is a problem and decide to have the delivery redirected to a hold location 10 minutes away in a sketchy-looking place but again, whatever, at least I'll get the package. By this point I know I can't expect to collect my delivery until Tuesday because of Memorial Day, but like I said, at least I'll get it.
Except it doesn't get delivered in a timely manner on Tuesday. Okay, I'll get it the next day--oh wait, the delivery failed because nobody was there to receive it.
What?
So on Wednesday (that is, yesterday), I call FedEx support. I have to call because the other side of this equation is the fact that, for whatever reason, Delivery Manager says that my address is invalid. I even tried signing up for an account on the website (it accepted my address then!) and then using that information to sign up for Delivery Manager--why these are separate opt-ins I don't know--but it rejected every security code it sent me, I assume because my address is invalid, whatever that means.
So anyway, I call FedEx support. (I want to make it clear that I have no issues with the representatives I spoke to, and I promise that, livid as I admittedly am, I did not take it out in any way on the people I spoke to.) After making the robot tell me it's having technical difficulties, it lets me speak to a human being, who tells me that apparently the hold location address was UPDATED after the delivery failure on Tuesday (I wasn't notified of that and I didn't do it) and that the package was out for delivery already to the new address. So my only option was to wait for that day's delivery.
It never happened. I checked the tracking info just before I went to sleep last night (a little after 12 am) and it was still out for delivery.
I wake up this morning and get an email at 8 am telling me that the delivery failed. It was already back out for delivery at 5 am.
So I call support again and get told that there's higher than usual delivery rates in my area and that THEY DON'T KNOW WHEN MY PACKAGE WILL BE DELIVERED. ...Sorry for the all-caps, I'm just exasperated.
So I can't update the delivery address to MY address because by the time the system lets me know that the delivery failed FedEx is already trying to deliver again (and the new delivery attempt starts far too early for me to be able to catch it, meaning it's an undue burden to even try to get my delivery sent TO MY ADDRESS), but even if I DID update the address, either they wouldn't ask for my signature OR, I guess, they would tell me that the package is out for delivery but NOT GET TO IT THAT DAY? And take it back to their facility?
I don't know what recourse I have here. I'm thinking it's none. But I am REALLY dissatisfied with FedEx, of all companies, being unable to tell me when to expect them to be able to deliver a package to me when it's in a facility a half-hour drive from me--and also with the fact that they apparently don't have a fallback plan for the edge case where a recipient lives in an apartment and has a mail room so signatures can't be requested on-site.
NOTE: My boyfriend recently got a shipment of some medicine delivered through FedEx. This medicine is a controlled substance and requires a signature. We live in the same apartment at the same address. FedEx delivered this medicine to him without asking for a signature.
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2023.06.01 13:05 One-Combination5348 Any advice regarding my novo seedlings?

Any advice regarding my novo seedlings?
I've had a couple of incidents with my plants. It was a very cloudy day, so I just left them covered with plastic (I usually protect them with three layers of shade mesh, so they receive indirect light) but suddenly the sun came out, which here in the south of Spain It's scorching, and they were exposed for just over an hour. I don't know if it's just due to the heat, but it seems that some plant has darker colored leaves (I'm color blind, so it's hard for me to tell if the color is normal or not), some leaves are curled, others wrinkled, withered, and others just fell... The second one happened when I was taking the plants to a more sheltered place (I had them in a greenhouse structure covered with shade mesh so I guess they weren't too bad either). I took the styrofoam box in which I have the seedlings and loaded it into a wheelbarrow, but when I was on my way home, I tripped over a stone and the box fell, so that some plants were buried, and when I arrived home I had to manipulate them to remove the substrate. Since yesterday I have them inside my house, some seem to be withering while others are resisting. There are also some that are growing their first leaves but the seed has not yet fallen, should I help them? Any advice is welcome. Sorry for my English, as you may notice, I'm not a native speaker.
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2023.06.01 13:00 IreyimikaTheLost Summer Illya's Profile (FGO material XI)

Illyasviel von Einzbern

Class: Archer
True Name: Illyasviel von Einzbern
Gender: Female
Origin: Fate/kaleid liner Prisma☆Illya
Region: Fuyuki City, Japan
Alignment: Neutral Summer
Height: 133cm
Weight: 29.5kg
Strength: C
Endurance: C
Agility: B
Mana: B
Luck: C-
Noble Phantasm: A
Character Creator: Hiroshi Hiroyama
Character Design: Hiroshi Hiroyama
Character Voice: Maii Kadowaki & Naoko Takano

Class Skills

Magic Resistance: A
A powerful magical barrier given to Ilya during her transformation. Nullifies spells A rank or bellow. Morden day mages can't harm elementary school students who are having fun during summer vacation
Independent Action: B
Ability to stay in the world for a while even if the supply of magical energy from the Master has been cut off
Infinite Magical Energy: C
The kaleidostick literally supplies an infinite amount of magical energy
Illya suspects that her (slight) increase in weight has to do with an excessive supply of magical energy

Personal Skills

High Pressure!: A
A skill that increases the water pressure and discharge from the hose. As a side note, even though it's called water, it's actually a sort of magical energy that Ruby converted to make it look summery, and what comes out of that nozzle may differ from time to time.
Summer Vacation! (Child): A+
Elementary school children are powerful, almost invincible during the summer. (They think) they can do anything, and (they think) they have all the time in the world. They start to weaken around the end of August
Legal Shower!: B++
Loaded with Ruby's meticulously-made herb extract (deadly poison). They are not only effective on contact, but they are also potent if inhaled.
"Its sophisticated toxicity is not only harmless to Illya, but it has the added bonus of actually raising her concentration!"
Its effects are so potent that even the hydra would recoil, but parents should rest assured that they're completely harmless to their children.

Noble Phantasm

『Young Girl, Become a Rainbow.』
Rank: A
NP Type: Anti-Army
Range: 10 - 50
Maximum Targets: 30
Prisma☆Splash Rainbow!
Fifth grade summer vacation...a once-in-a-lifetime occurrence. ...Or so it should have been. But after having to repeat the so-called invaluable summer for numerous years, Illya finally realizes the true meaning of summer vacation.
Everything comes to an end. The moment something starts, the countdown to its end begins as well. Treasures obtained, the emotions that come with them, and even precious memories are bound to disappear one day. But even if you try stopping the clock out of fear of losing things, the treasures will lose their luster. And that's why we cannot stop. We need to continue toward the future even as things come to an end. The ancient treasures become constellations, and the paths we walked become a rainbow that paints the skies...
This is the important life lesson she came to learn...though honestly, that kind of awareness should be saved for serious main stories... Either way, Illya converts all these summer memories and bonds into power to transform into "Prisma☆Illya Splash Rainbow!" Her resolve to end summer vacation calls forth another Illya from a different time, and a light bullet that's seven times more dense than normal time density fires at anything stagnant.
And she'll try her best again during the new school term.

Character

First-person pronoun: Watashi
Second-person pronoun: Anata/○○oniisan/○○oneesan/○○san/○○chan (girls of the same age group)/○○kun (boys of the same age group)
Third-person pronoun: ○○san/Anohito/Anoko

Personality

Almost the same as normal Illya
However, due to the swimsuit, she is a little more excited than usual, and her IQ and luck have decreased.
In short, Ilya is in comedy mode. Ilya, whose body and mind have turned to summer, has made it her supreme mission to "play hard during the summer vacation.
It seems that her appetite is slightly off the rails as well as her rationality, and she talks about food a lot.
Basically, she eats anything and thinks everything is delicious!
Ruby is in "Splash Mode," a hose reel and nozzle form. Although her appearance has changed, she still flies around without permission and is still an annoyance that disturbs the place!
Illya left the class cards in her room

Motivation and Attitude to Master

Same as normal Illya, but with a more casual feel
For now I want to put my work aside and have fun with Master
She's a little less honour student like and a little more prepared to stay up late
Whenever she gets tired from playing she suddenly falls asleep

Dialog Examples

Illya: "I'm not a magical girl now. I'm just a swimsuit girl"
Illya: "Summer vacation never ends and no matter how much you eat you won't gain weight. Isn't being a Servant the best?"
Illya: "'How can everyone be so calm when there's a murderer!?""
Ruby: "I can serve almost anything watery! I can't guarantee the effect, though."
Ruby: "Hmmm, is that a blood trail? Well, let's give it a squirt of Luminol solution."
Ruby: "How dare you doubt Ruby-chan! If it was me they would definitely be dead"

Figure within FGO

Summer! Lake! Camp!
An event that came up right as I was starving for recreation.
I don't really know what the singularity is or what it's all about, but it's a summer camp with a group of friends you love, right? Oh, surely it will be an unforgettable experience.
Unfortunately this time it was a horror story.
And Illya is a scream queen
Surrounded by people who wouldn't be scared even if a murderer showed up beside them, the only thing she can do is pretend to be brave even if it kills her. Holding back her voice and tears, Illya will surely reach the ending. After all she has the survival flag of "a child in a horror movie"

Standard Weapons

Magical Ruby Splash Mode (She has become more annoying now that she sprays watery substances carelessly)

Related Characters

Chloe von Einzbern
She was looking at my swimsuit with envy
Miyu Edelfelt
Would you like me to lend you a swimsuit? Obviously it'll be a string bikini! I think she'd respond well to that!
Sitonai
That swimsuit, something like that is interesting... No! It's nothing!
Abigail Williams
Hey! Senpai! I want you to teach me how to be a bad girl so Master can take care of me

Comments from illustrator

With the theme of Summer + Archer I knew I had to get fired up and think of something, but it felt like I had already run out of ideas! So after much thought I came up with the hose reel.
Ruby's mood has been steadily getting worse yet she has become more and more popular.
The mysterious cat headdress is made out of toweling not fur.
The initial idea for her second ascension was a graceful style called "wrap towel" but for some reason the boss didn't approve of it. Damn!
I think I overdid it with the facial expressions, but I drew the faces that I thought were necessary for Ilya's role in the story, and this is what I came up with. I am grateful that they were able to be used effectively. (Hiroshi Hiroyama)
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